Why Can't I just fix it?

For those who may actually read this blog and don't know me personally I am married. You may think that is not unusual news but what you also don't know is my wife has a long term illness. To give you some background 3 months before we were married my then fiance got sick which was unusual but mimicked flu like symptoms and what the doctors thought was the early onset of Arthritis. Well the Arthritis thought was not great but not morbid or cataclysmic. However, the doctors missed some of the symptoms thinking they were nothing but the flu and my fiance (at the time now my lovely wife) kept getting sicker. To make a really long story shorter this all culminated in a trip to the ER which went into CCU and a couple weeks later came out with hope, some healing, and the burden of long term illness. My wife has had ups and downs but has been progressing on the healing path but because of the illness has days that are not so good. Or if she is having a good day but then does an involved activity, it wipes her out. For instance my loving wife today went grocery shopping while I had my brain turned into more mush by grad school. For her endeavor to take care of me and our house she is totally wiped out and exhausted. At this point she struggles to be anywhere near sociable or even approachable and many times need to rest. Now comes the reason for the title, me I am an on the go person though most of the time I wish I could stay at home. I usually maintain 2 - 3 jobs plus active ministry and being in the National Guard. With all of this I have a go until you completely collapse mentality and when she has to rest I must fight my urge to think why can't you keep going, then the Lord is gracious enough to remind me that she is the weaker vessel and needs my care. Then with that prodding of the Spirit another desire embraces me of "Why Can't I just fix it?" In my typical man mentality I can fix coffee makers that go on the fritz (even when it is inconvenient) and I can fix cars, houses, and even computer that people manage to literally cook or obtain 88,826 virus infections. So even thought I am not Mr. Universe or Superman I can fix many things why can't I fix this and make my wife healthy. I see her tired, worn out and hampered by disease and my heart hurts because I desire to make all things right for her. But, this is where I must trust in Jesus Christ who is the Creator and Sustainer of all things, about whom the Apostle Paul says works all things for good to them that love Him. So in my desire to fix things for my wife I must make sure I am fixed on Jesus Christ and the I am actively loving Him knowing and trusting that He does do all this for my good. One day maybe I can look back and see all the reasons for this burden but today I must trust. This is my struggle, having the one I love carrying the burden of sickness and though I cannot take the burden away as much as I may wish I can get under and help her carry it.